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19:47
Monday, November 26

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You have reached Fai Flourite, though I regret to say I'm not in at the moment. I'm probably out somewhere doing very important science-y things, or fulfilling my duties as a teacher, or defying death as an X-man... or I've lost my phone again. If you need to reach me urgently, try calling Yuui Flourite at [number] or Feliks Łukasiewicz at [number].

Be good, and don't to anything I wouldn't do... and do tell me if you ever find anything I wouldn't.

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From:

onlyhisdreams

Shhhhhh.

[Lorna hushes him softly, a sudden urge to hush him in person overcoming her.]

There is nothing to apologize for. You have done nothing wrong--do not argue.

From:

comparative_insanity

[Yes, that goes the last of his self control, and for a while there's just going to be him trying not to sob in her ear.

Then he draws a deep breath, his voice coming out choked and a bit harsh.]

I'm just- I should've- I don't know how to do this, Lorna. I just keep messing up.

From:

onlyhisdreams

[Easily swayed by his emotions, even without the use of his powers, Fai trying not to cry makes her choke up. She tries her best to keep her breath steady.]

You fell into an awful situation, and I cannot express how sorry I am for that, but you are so strong.

From:

comparative_insanity

[But he doesn't feel strong, or brave, or kind. Because he knew that in a sense he was using Lovi just as much as the other boy had been using him. Using his weakness to feel better about himself, to justify enabling him even further.

In the end, is he really that much better than his guardian?]

I... I wish I just didn't care anymore. That I didn't care about breaking his heart.

From:

onlyhisdreams

[Lorna knows how toxic that relationship was, and she's eternally happy that it's over, but she's still trying her best to be supportive. Just like Fai is always supportive of her, no matter how stupid her mistakes are.]

I know. You...wish all your emotions would just go away and you wish you could...you wish everything would just be silent. It hurts, and you feel...you feel like you are losing one of your best friends. But it is for the better.

It does get better.

From:

comparative_insanity

[And now he is crying, because she's right. It hurts. It hurts so much that he doesn't know what to do with himself, but he'd do anything if it took the pain away.]

H-his brother- I- I c-could put up with- if it was just me but... It w-wasn't fair t-to treat Feli like th-at when he knows how much it h-hurts to feel that w-way about yourself... And now h-he'll think I'm j-just another person w-who cares about Feli more than h-h-him, and it's not true-

[Yeah, he's not going to be very coherent right now.]

From:

onlyhisdreams

[Hot tears run down Lorna's cheeks, dripping off her chin and down into her lap. She was just in this situation, and she's still going through so many of these feelings. A thousand times over, she's thought about all she did wrong, what she could have done better, and if there was any way to fix this. It hurts, so badly, and more than anything she wants to run back to the man she loves and beg for his forgiveness.

But she's resisted because of the love and support of her friends. Because of Fai.

It's not the same over the phone, but she coos softly.]

Would you like to sleep with me tonight? We can make a bed out of all the cushions in a common room.

From:

comparative_insanity

[At first all he can do is nod, which of course is rather ineffectual over the phone, but he can't seem to squeeze out any sound at all now that his voice has petered out - or even breathe properly, really.

It takes a little while longer, but then he finally manages to get himself to make actual words again.]

Y-yes. I... Yuui h-has been taking care of me since I- I w-was too close to th-the screaming and the d-doctors said I've got a concussion, b-but... but he's got so m-much school work and I d-don't want to distract him but I c-can't be alone. So I- I'd love to.

From:

onlyhisdreams

[He doesn't immediately respond with a negative sound, so that's good. But hearing his pain through the phone is hard. She puts a hand over her own mouth as she listens to her best friend. That hand doesn't move until he stops speaking.]

Wonderful. I will bake cookies and we will watch The Sound of Music. Or Mary Poppins. Frankly, anything starring Julie Andrews is a possibility.

Feliks can come, too.

From:

comparative_insanity

[That gets a wobbly little laugh, because somehow Lorna manages to be just so very perfect even now.]

I think I c-could do with Thoroughly Modern Millie too. And Yuui made me an obscenely huge cake, and I've just been throwing it up so I might as well give some for you instead. [Being concussed and heartbroken sucks.]

And poor Feliks, he has to take care of us b-both. [A pause.] We should go buy him something to say thanks. I'm going to have to buy something for Maya for helping out so much anyway.

From:

onlyhisdreams

[Right now, she feels far from perfect. She nods in agreement before she remembers he can't see her... or just divine it.]

Then perhaps I shall replace cookies with saltines and water.

When you feel better--when we both do--we should go shopping. I may even be able to convince Uncle Charles to let me out without an escort.